Check out Perry Robinson’s clarinet intro and John Hummel’s incredible drumming around 2:20 on Love That Lasts from our Get Free album. John’s gotta be the bastard musical lovechild of Ginger Baker and John Bonham.

OK Guitar Geeks – what tuning am I using on this song? I’ll give you a hint, it’s a favorite of Jimmy Page. This photo of him makes me want to lick his neck.

Let’s hear it for those tireless rock fanatics who pour their hearts and souls into letting the world know about new music…and manage to be politically conscious in the process. Christine Natanael, ediatrix-in-chief of Crusher magazine is one of ‘em. Christine and I met awhile back when she took me to see Ministry at Irving Plaza last fall. Our NYC homeboy Tommy Victor from Prong was shredding it on guitar. I danced my face off.

For my interview with Crusher, Christine chose Crusher’s London writer Alissa Ordabai, because Alissa’s also a guitar player and gets all that guitar geek stuff. We got deep into it about female guitarists, the metaphysics of the blues, Camille Paglia and, oh yeah, the Get Free album.

“That’s funny,” I thought, “I used to know a Phil Sudo.” I turned the book over and read that Sudo was a musician living in Maui with his wife and children. Couldn’t be the same guy. The Phil Sudo I knew was almost certainly still fidgeting miserably at his desk at American Banker newspaper.

That’s where I’d last seen him, back when I was a punk rock guitar player who freelanced for AB to pay for my East Village rathole. I’d traipse in to see the editor, ignoring the reporters snickering at my thrift-store dress and Doc Martens.

On the way out, I’d always stop to chat with Phil, a fellow downtown guitarist who loved to jam. For hours. “I haaaaaaaaaate it here,” Phil would moan, pulling on his tie. “Quit!” I’d insist, “Go on tour. Get out there!” “I caaaaaan’t,” he’d sigh, squirming like a four-year-old. “I need the security.” “No you don’t,” I’d say, “You really don’t.”

We lost touch. Fast forward through the punk band, a rap/metal band and an alt rock band, and I’m thinking “I need to learn to sing. I want to start my own band. I want to find my sound.”  I’m reading Zen Guitar and it’s teaching me how to do this. It’s beautifully written, wise and true. It’s giving me courage.

The book says:

“What’s important is to play from the heart and soul. If you do that, you’ll have no need to search for a personal style or signature sound; it will develop naturally.”

“The Way of Zen Guitar is to play what you are meant to play, not necessarily what you want to play. Understand the difference.”

“One can play the greatest stages in the world and still be spiritually adrift; talent alone does not bring inner peace. if you work to find peace within yourself, you will have no self doubt about your music, your talent, or anything else.”

“When things fall apart, make art.”

I learn that Buddhists also listen for what my yoga teacher calls the nadam, the streaming  sound current of life. Science has proven that all matter vibrates; it sings. The Bible says: “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.”

Yogis call that word Om. Zen masters call it sekishu no onjo–the sound of one hand clapping.

Zen Guitar says,

“If you get to that source you will know the answer to every question because you will have heard it all.”

After I finish Zen Guitar, I idly scan the acknowledgments. I recognize a couple names.  Holy crap, it’s the same Phil Sudo! I find his website and fire off an excited email. I check out his music. It’s exhilarating, percussive, rocking and uplifting.

Phil has combined his love of jamming and passion for enlightenment into a 12-theme composition called “One Sound One Song.” The themes are simple, yet brilliant. They can be woven together and played for any length of time.

Learning them teaches beginners the fundamentals of the guitar. Jamming on them provides an experience of transcendence. 

Phil emails the next day. The good news: He’s not in far-off Maui, he’s in NYC! The bad: He’s at Sloan Kettering being treated for stomach cancer. I read his cancer journal. Like Zen Guitar, it’s beautifully written, wise and true. “All weather is good weather,” he notes, when you may be dying. “I can talk the talk,” he adds, referring to his four books on zen, “we shall see how well I walk the walk.”

Zen, he explains, “spells out the attitude required to live with cancer: the intense focus on living today; finding joy in the commonplace; moving forward with spiritual resolve on a difficult path. In essence, I had written my own prescription to follow for dealing with my newfound circumstance.” The irony isn’t lost on him.

We plan a visit at his mom’s home, where Phil and his family are staying. The visit is postponed two weeks when Phil is hospitalized again. When I do get to the Upper West Side apartment, I meet his wife, Tracy. She’s beautiful; she looks frightened. Phil is excruciatingly thin. He describes himself in his journal as “a collection of bones held together by a tight wrapping of skin.” Three adorable kids, all under age seven, are charging around the place. This is the definition of “not fair.”

Phil and I sit on two chairs and catch up. I tell him how proud I am that he left American Banker, wrote such fine books, made great music, found true love and had children. I tell him about yoga and he tells me about zen. We marvel that we each found spiritual paths and that we each chose the same sword, a guitar.

For a moment, I forget he’s sick and I chatter about the great jam sessions we’re going to have. Phil leans forward and says, “You know how zen and yoga teach us not to identify with the body or mind? And it seems so hard to comprehend? Well, look at me, my body is barely hanging on…but I’m still here!”

He leans back in his chair with a grin, “Boy, you really get it when something like this happens.”  He leans forward again and whispers, with a nod toward his wife and mom, “I haven’t told them yet, but I’m giving up. I don’t want to go, but I’m ready.”

I’m flattened. I don’t know what to say. “This is…not fair!” I sputter and he shrugs and smiles, probably because I sound like the punk rocker who used to stomp her boots and tell him to change his circumstances. Only this time he can’t. Yet he already has, inside. He’s a black belt zen guitar warrior and he does not like that this disease has arrived to rip him from his friends and family, but he isn’t helpless or hopeless. He doesn’t need the security. He’s ready. He’s free.

Walking to the subway I cry on the shoulder of my friend Michael Dean, who had come from California to interview Phil.

Phil died three weeks later. I came home from his memorial and picked up my guitar. I felt mad and sad. I’d found and lost a good friend who had become a great man. His family had lost so much more.

What was the lesson here? What was the point? Sighing, I put down the guitar. A scrap of melody played in my ear: “Get free, baby, get free ’cause I’m still here.” I picked up my guitar, listening. “Get free, baby, get free ’cause it’s all so clear.”  Yep, there it was. The point. Thanks, Phil.   

Visit the Zen Guitar Dojo

Download “Get Free,” the title track from Devi’s debut album
(True Nature Records/Redeye USA Sept 2009)

Michael W. Dean’s interview with Phil Sudo

When I wrote The Language of the Blues (foreword by Dr. John!) I discovered that the Vodou religion is the pulse of that fonky beat. Some people might’ve hoped for Vodou to have been washed away by Hurricane Katrina, but it’s the strength of the city and it’s coming back. Check out my story for HeadCount on the upcoming Anbo Dlo festival and interview with priestess Sallie Glassman. And groove to the Night Tripper and the Meters.

The morning of 9/11/2001, I was heading out the door of my Hoboken apartment to meet a friend when I flipped on the radio and heard that a bomb had gone off at the World Trade Center. I came back inside and turned on the TV. I watched in shock as smoke poured out of the north tower, thinking this was some terrible accident…then I saw the second plane ram into the south tower. When the north tower imploded and crumbled into a cloud of dust, I ran outside, jumped onto my bike and rode to the riverfront, with some vague idea of praying for the people who had just been immolated. By the time I got there, I saw not one, but two massive white clouds across the river. The south tower had just fallen, too. A young Indian man standing next to me said “my aunt and uncle work in that tower.”

As supersonic fighter jets streaked across the sky over Hoboken, I realized my cell phone service was gone…because the cell phone towers had been on top of the WTC.

When the WTC PATH station finally re-opened and I took my first ride on it into the city, the tunnel opened right into the basin of Ground Zero. Workers were still finding bone fragments and I could see the great concrete walls of the buildings’ foundation, and the enormous rusty screws and bolts that had once tethered the foundation cables. All I could think, as tears ran down my face, was “welcome to the boneyard.”

Don’t tell my Dad but I’m The Rock and Roll Report’s September Triple R Girl. RRR says:  If you think this is a typical “babe of the month” thing you are sadly mistaken. The Triple R Girl celebrates some amazing women who exemplify rock and roll attitude.

As a former member of my high school debate team, I’m honored to be included. Oh, and check out the fit a male commentator threw on RRR about female musicians…and the verbal beatdown he received. Pretty funny.   [photo by Bob Schaffer]